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Sunday, April 29, 2007

Fortune teller

Went with kh to eat punggol nasi lemak on wednesday. v nice. See the queue behind, see the queue behind. I was once there. Good food takes great patience. hahaha. Recommended by lao jiao himself. haha.

Thurs to fri lyk nth on. other than noticing mood change in the girls. They didnt tell me anything. But i can feel it.

Sat i went to the fortune-teller(tarot cards those kind). kindly sponsored by my bro kh as he want me to try out. The fortune teller was right. The person correctly describe her, her character, that she still likes another guy and she totally has no interest in me. The person even state that i am bound to get hurt. She did not give me any good news but i was expecting no news. BUT no, its a bad news. haha. A calamity that i will have to face. And the way to resolve it is by me.

Then i ask about family. Abt the past i want to know. All my cards were inversed. and the meaning for each card show v low possibility of knowing the truth. haiz.

Will start to do my hmwk, spend more time with family, try to find a job and still love her in 1 corner.

"You are the knight of cups(high in emotions) but u possess the inverse ace of cups(cant control it)"

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Monday, April 23, 2007

Tired

Its onli de 1st day of sch and i m superrrr tired.

Went sch wif dajie and sam early to have our papers printed for our lessons. Ate breakfast in school. Yum, long time nv go dere eat le. haha. Had Business Finance after dat. It was kinda boring and the teacher, well, reminds me of WJ. haha.

After this lesson and before my japanese lec lesson, there was a four hrs break. So, we decided to go to TM to have our lunch. Had pasta mania(student promo, cheap cheap). Went wif tricia, sam, dajie, sharon and abel. Shortly, tricia went to mit her fren.

We went to post office afterwards wif dajie as she nided 2 buy coupon for her bf. Dajie and sharon went home. Abel had lesson too but he went home as he was not feeling well. So sam and i took bus 23 to school. from tampines interchange to sch, and from sch to de loop at bugis and back to sch again. haha. wasting time.

attend jap, saw eric and saybing. sam and eric were old classmates, once in pri 3. so dey began to chat in the bus when we are going home.

couldnt control my emotions 2dae. Hope i can manage it tmr. She constantly reminded me of wat she feels and wants. I still choose to wait.

A good rest can solve many problems.

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Un-asleep

Woo, insomnia is back in action. Schs starting tmr and i cant haf insomnia. Have been thinking of.. thats bad. So many nights now. hmm, sounds lyk a song.

I wanna fall asleep.

Are we drifting apart?
Katanajayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

AATA

Sometimes i just feel that some phrase my bros says are quite meaningful:
jj: If you try to be me, you will be me. (this nid some thinking, intellectually-challenged pls take ur time)
kh: Wat alwaes remain contant? Changes.

Quite looking forward to school. Same CDS with a bro. Jap! woo~~ alto diff class. Will be attending zr's drama grad performance in abt 13hrs time. 1st time supporting. Acting a doctor i heard, haha.

Cant sleep properly for many nights. frustrated.

Sleepless nights

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Many thoughts

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Never-ending week

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Helpless actions

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Mahjong with bros! Then to sleep!

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Thursday, April 19, 2007

OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHH FOOOOOOODDDDDD

I accompanied jj to skate-line to haf his skates fixed. It was somewhere at Paya Lebar.. Opposite it was a shop call: "Geylang Prawn Noodle" It was dam nice. I had a $4 prawn noodle and de prawns are dam big. Imagine jj ordering a $8 BIG prawn noodle. Now, how BIG is dat. haha Its dam nice and worth trying.

Got some new clothes at bugis wif a bro. but dam gay la, 2 guys going. haiz. but its okay, dats a big step.

Got a bad news, maybe 2 but only de 1st is worth mentioning. I M IN THE SAME CLASS WIF DAT GUY!!!!!!!! Quoted from DARREN: "KNNOMFGBBQ". Hope 1 year from now i wun be typing this same phrase wif de word "again" in it. Lets pray. dun ask me to who, non-believer.

Feel like a loner..once again.

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Time like this

Its time like this that reminds me of her. Bet 2dae she would be staring at de calender..fascinated over the date. And 2dae she will be eating vegetarian food. Its de 1st day of a lunar month. Have been hanging out wif bros this days. Buy clothes, eat cheap and good, doing sports, hanging out at parks. I m totally diff from the past. She changed my life completely. Alto..

Feeling empty. cant really explain it. v busy dis few days. Park, beach, bugis, amk, eric's hse, funeral, but y do i feel so empty..

"U actually deserve a better girl.." A very simple phrase use by many girls. Guess it cant be more obvious rite. The prob now is just me.

Sch start, i m gonna resume my squash, practice my cycling and try blading. Hopefully wif my time occupied, my mind will b less of her..

Time like this..

True-Ryan Cabrera

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Hellooooooooooooo World.

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Monday, April 09, 2007

Add fuel to the fire.

Woah Woah Woah, problems are now piling up. Now solving the problems 1 by 1. i cant b contacted by any means. Smart people will tend to uds. poor wat, wat 2 do? actually is forget. haha.

Alto i haf a number to call when i nid some1 2 talk to, i cant. cos 1, i m scared of de MA and 2, i cant call. hahaha.

Will see the world again in a few days. Till then, bye.

Trying to be a superman..only in my world.

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Not for the weak-hearted

Gosh, in just 4 days..many things happen..

Thu-Last day of work. Every1 from kelly services wore black. lyk wu jian dao. went pooling at orchard and den had ji de chi at bugis for dessert(dinner to me) with sam, jennifer and amanda. had family problem..stronger due to a reason. solve dat prob, but knowing it wun b for long.

Fri-went cycling wif bros(zr, kh, jj) at pasir ris. 3rd time riding bike so kip getting scared of banging dem. saw an amazing duo blading at de blading court. dam cool and stylo. The uncle dere, who is apparently the coach, intro us this sport. He told us this, "the blading u normally see is call recreational blading. After this, there is 5 different types of blading. In-line aggressive, hockey, speed, artistic, freestyle. And i m now displaying In-line freestyle." It was dam cool.

Had dinner at ljs at hg mall den went lanning at plaza. Whole day wif bros..woo~~

Sat-Had a bad dream. Hate it when it is abt someone..cos it nv mean gd thing. alot of times le. When this happen, i had 2 noe sad but true stuff. so yah, i know sumthing again.

Sun-Got confronted..was asked to dun wait. but choose the other option. follow wat my heart says. Grand-auntie past away on dat day. v sad, she was v close to me. visited her a week ago. that was my last. attending her funeral tmr. Went to eric hse to chill. too many things happen to me. had great time wif him and kh playing PS2. feel young again.

Looking for job wif tricia tmr, ask ask abt de job.

No one's hurting me. If there is, it would be myself.

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

See THIS!

Wee, woo~~ had ECONOMICAL beehoon for lunch at work with sam, jennifer and amanda. ate at PS, funny but nice. den had some weird weird stuff dat i forgot and sushi. woo.

Play ard in the gift section during work. saw melody and another girl which i m sorry, i forgot her name. Veron wasnt so fierce as dey described, kinda nice supervisor. Chameleon say something. "even blind person can tell u 2 r couple.." "She" was kinda feel nth abt it. I was happy though. Alto the fact remains. Aft work went out wif her to buy my wallet. i repeat, wallet. Oh yeah, WALLET!!! and we had some bubbly drink aft dat. den she went home herself. (Independent woman, i m so proud of her) And i went to hg to cut my hair.

Worried bout my mum. walk 1 step at a time.

If everyday was lyk this.

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Lost..yet cant described.

Feeling empty inside me the moment i wake up. Actually no, is severe tiredness and achingness dat i feel. Working la. Then i feel empty. i dun uds.

woke up, had bfast. look at de time. 1pm. if i m working, it wun b lunchbreak. then i on my com. played wheel of fortune (MSN game) wif tricia. then aft a few games, she left. aft dat i watched some videos on youtube. Then play TD (WC3 game) wif darren until dinner time. den mum call, tell me some bad news. feeling v vexed. kinda display some of my anger 2 some1. v sorry.

i dunno la, i just nid some1 to tok to. some1 who can just listen..listen long. haiz..dats hard..

Argh, i just want 1 day. Just 1 day to be myself. my mind is so filled wif stuff.. starting to be afraid.. feeling v vexed..v empty..very lost..i think i m crazy.

sorry bros, when u guys say i can share my burden wif u guys....i guess i end up carrying it my own. cant change myself. thx.

Contradicting. Feeling heavy yet cant see wats pulling me down. Ironic.

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Open the eye

Hmm, i nv knew i overlooked something. Something that is very important. She told me once she feel she has grown dependent on me and she dislike it. so she is trying to get rid of it. I nv realise i m oso growing dependent on her too..

of coz, until 2dae. how hard it is to go back home urself?? well, for 2dae, it took me certain amount of courage. I bet if darren is reading this, he will say :"wtf?? jayton, u r dam gay. u should just go and find ur best fren." But yah, i reached a conclusion 2dae, i lead a life too. SO, i shld lead MY life.

Man, is dis part of growing up? to learn things and to adapt to things? kinda tiring u noe. but its okay. My mindset is still de same but the onli thing dat changed as of 2dae is this: I will be independent!

Will be working from mondae to thursdae. tiring. Strawberry cookies at my workplace is so~so, caramel corn i haben try. so yah jo, nxt time den i try ur recommendation~~

Watched TMNT wif bros at 1am on 1st of april. de onli available timeslot. Kinda..u noe..borin..and all. u can read the critics. eric and zr were just playin wif de coke. drinking so much dat me and kh haf practically nth 2 drink. took de NR bus at 3. Super tired seh. Zr snooze in de bus while eric is trapped in his lala land wif his eyes open. left me and kh chatting non stop. we r dam cool. Too bad jj got work. bet it will b chaotic wif him ard.

haiz, i wish i am in japan now. I totally missed the cherry blossom. it has been a year though. =)

I miss my bros.. .. .. .. .. .. ..but i miss the sushi treat by zr more.

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Stupid

i cant clap myself more for my stupidity. This is getting out of control. I nid professional help. I nid sudoku! and maths questions! I nid 2 get my mind busy for a moment.

Haiz

KatanaJayz

so I told you guys with a smile
It's all about been free